Resignation

Hello guys, its been a while since i posted anything at all
I don't think any person is really reading these lol..
Only me? i guess? hahahha
Well whatever

Semester Break!

Been thinking a lot actually, since semester break has already begun few days ago.
I worked last sem, to gain some pocket money, well you know, to buys stuffs around college.
Important 'stuffs' i repeat,not to jolly around and spend it on worthless things.
The thing is, I'm not sure whether i wanted to work again this semester break.
I do want to get an extra bucks. Been dreaming to buy something for myself.
Well something special. Who knows right? :)

Maybe i'm not ready to work just yet for now. Need some time to rest and fool around if you know what i mean. Hehehe...
Anyhow, nak tak nak, aku kena kerja doe cuti ni, next sem diploma showcase
So, I'll be needing at least 300 bucks. Takkan everything nak mintak mak. Buruk perangai wei.
Remember always work yourself up, don't easily depend on others for success
You Can Do It!

For the meantime...aku nak enjoy dulu kt KL ni semetara masih ada masa :PPPP

Half-Blood Vampire...

I think i am a half blooded vampire. Reasons?
-I prefer going out at night rather than in the morning
-I sleep in the morning and stay up late at night
-I prefer to stay in the dark. alone (freak)
-I like to stay in shades, eg. i usually close the curtains in the morning in my room which my friend don't like it because they need to study. lol
-I like syrups, well, not that it makes sense, but it looks like blood. so its cool :D
What other reasons huh? hmmmm...
I haven't thought about it actually. hehe
Think think!

Lost in my own world

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
Hi guys!!!!!!!!!!
Lama gila aku tak post......
Maklumlah busy dengan practical n exams. Tapi sekarang dah cooldown sikit la, takda la busy mcm the past 2 months. Cuma la ni, aku fokus untuk teater Kanak-Kanak yg akan berlangsung next week! On 27th Sept at studio in UiTM PP, rajin datang lah support ya :)

Drugs and Alcohol

I don't drink nor do i have any obsession with alcohol intake. Hell, i don't even smoke. Neither with free sex. Im clean i tell you. My dignity still stands. I was born and raised as a good child. My parents taught me a lot about life. But sadly, i had hard time keeping up with religious needs. Because i wasn't exposed too much to the agama when i was growing up. Mostly belajar time sekolah ja.

My parents boleh dikatakan hidup secara western lifestyle la. My mum drinks,my father drinks, my sister drinks, my brother drinks. i don't. I don't drink. Luckily there were no history of drug abuse in the family. I'm not shy to admit i have a family who drinks. I'm just thankful that i don't. :)

My Soulmate.

Recently i develop a crush on a new girl i met past few days. I'm just gonna keep her identity secret for a while. I met her once. We haven't talked much. We have so many personal interest in common. I was amazed that the fact that her likes and dislikes are similar to mine. The question is, is she the one? It's hard to tell, or maybe im just daydreaming all by myself. But still, like my current status, i do not want to be in a relationship yet. I am who i am right now. The past lives reflects of what i am. Everytime i tell to myself to don't succumb to the temptation. Nevertheless, im single but not available.

Busy as hell

Kinda busy doin courseworks and stuffs. Plus my blog is having problem editing a new post. =.=
Malas sikit nk menunggu.

Natural Born Killer

I enjoy killing. It's fun. Stabbing, ripping someone's guts off, cutting them... trust me...its very satisfying. It relieves u from all of your troubles. And yes, sometimes, i find it hard to accept my unacceptable lifestyle. But what can i say huh? Blood attracts me, the sound of horrific screams makes me go 'wohooo!' More more more! Nevertheless.... its all games. What? u think im crazy enough to go kill ppl in public? gila ka?? hahhahahahha. Damn, i just fooled u again. :P

But still, i enjoy gruesome features, ghost stories, and not forgetting zombies! Hellsyeah, i love killing zombies! From zombie vs plant to Left4Dead. Mmg thumbs up. If , in the future a zombie outbreak had occured, feel free to contact me. Trust me, if u are with me, u will survive, im capable of handling these so called dead walkers. I am prepared :)

Problem Solving? I don't think so.

Its 3am and im writing a post. What? u guys never had trouble with sleep? hahaha. I can't sleep. Something is bothering me, its kinda complicated. U guys wouldn't understand even if i told u all. Its something which involves me with my emotions deep within. And of course im trying to accept the nature's desire along with the path that is set by God. Life is hard, agreed. Well, all i can say is the best way to escape from a problem is to solve it. Figure out what's bugging u and look for an opening to strike against it. But the problem is, im facing stuffs that is unsolvable. It is very very very complex i tell u. Im not giving any hints on what trouble im having with myself. Its kinda private stuff.

Nevertheless,if i do commit this mission there will be some consequences .
result 1: everybody hates me
result 2: only 1 person hates me ( but that person will hate 'the friend')
result 3: no one hates me ( which is unlikely, 5% success rate)

I bet u are starting to think on what im talking about. Hahaha. Good, cause im not gonna tell u! U just wasted your 5minutes reading some crap. But yeah,if u know what it is, then, u are lucky :P

The Person I Love The Most

my head hurts. im feeling down. i feel so lonely right now. i need someone. just someone. someone i really adore. no one else can take your place. no one else can cure my heart. i love u mum..... i love u sooo much.

Another me

Sometimes i like to wander off all by myself. Just walk, without anticipating any possible outcomes throughout my journey. Last week, i went to Jalan Templer, naik bus, KTM and all, sorang2. I don't know about u guys, but it feels good doing it. Im not a loner, i just like to be alone at certain times. Yeah, im complicated, i know. But it is who i am. No one can change it.

Question Mark [?]

Girls asked me,"meer, why u single ha? org mcm u tak sesuai jd single". Dafuq? who are u to judge me?
Let me get this straight, first of all, i have made a promise to myself to not have a some sort of serious relationship with anyone. I came to UiTM to study, not to hunt for kinky bimbos. I am independent, i don't need girls to fulfill things. Stakat nk hangout, i don't mind, but if u want love shit semua tu, make sure u are the right person for me. I don't know who. Only god knows the answer. Kalau dah kena turned down, jgn salahkan i. Not to show off la kan, but the fact that some of the girls asked me to become their bf,scandals and whatnot shit. Whats wrong with girls these days? I mean seriously. rofl. No offense. im just telling the facts. Im just not ready yet. I have NOT been in a relationship for 2 years and it feels good. My next relationship is gonna be an extrimely serious one, maybe tahap sampai kawin kot. InsyaAllah :)
but yeah, it has to be the right person.

p/s: sorry if i used bad words to describe stuffs...i would use polite ones but there are none :3

Just Something...

Something in the way she movesAttracts me like no other loverSomething in the way she woos meI don't want to leave her nowYou know I believe and how

Somewhere in her smile she knowsThat I don't need no other loverSomething in her style that shows meI don't want to leave her nowYou know I believe and how

You're asking me, will my love grow?I don't know, I don't knowYou stick around now it may showI don't know, I don't know

Something in the way she knowsAnd all I have to do is think of herSomething in the things she shows meI don't want to leave her nowYou know I believe and how

Shockingly news~

I was on my way back to my room  when my friend shouted " Ameer! Tunggu sat" and i was like "what's up?" He said "Kau masuk paper metro harini!" and i was like "Serius ke beb!!??" Terus i went to the kedai runcit and bought myself a copy of metro newspaper. I mcm wow! awesomenya...haha first time masuk paper. Here's the pic.......

That's me!!! 2nd one on the left :)

Bed Bugs!

I have trouble sleeping without a special pillow to hug. Kalau takdak bantal peluk mmg tidoq tak lena. Boleh ja nk doze,tp take time jugak la. I was like this since i was little. So, u can't make me sleep without me hugging a pillow :) Tapi bila dah kawin nnti taktau la kan..... Maybe my wife can replace 'the' pillow? Ahaks ;p

Kuat berangan lah ko ni meer. 1 more thing is, i can't go to bed without taking a shower. Kadang2 badan rasa belengaih. Tak syok tidoq. Nak comfort kena la freshen up kan, baru selesa gila. 

I have a unique ability that can sense cockroach when it is near perimeter. I just can feel it, its like Peter Parker with his spider's sense. More like cockroach sense for me, the tingling feeling trying to aware me of the threat that is about to occur. Judging by the fact that i am scared of cockroach. I suffer from Katsaridaphobia. I know some people mesti like pikir...hahaha, apalah, that guy takut lipas! idk

Lipas just freaks me out. Kalau dia terbang lagi la.....eeeeeeeeeeeeee..thinking of that just gave me the goosebumps. Die lipas die! bila kau nak extinct ni??

OMG Courseworks!

As u know, i am a student of performing arts. My lecturer gave me a cwk (coursework),or more likely an assignment to copy the movement of animals which is giving me a hard time trying to figure out what kind of animal should i choose. I need to fully observe and an animal and copy the animal's movement. I haven't decided it yet and to be honest i don't put much thought about it this past few days. Biasa lah, student kan, last2 minute baru nak kalut. This is actually a part of my acting class. Teater Kanak-kanak (TKK). The whole class needs to perform a theatre-based with animal features to the kindergarten kids. Shit, peningnya aku. Layan guitar main lagu metal lg best~ hahahhah. But still, what animal should i choose huh? A penguin? snake? crocodile? what about panda? Pandas are cute right? hhhehe..

Mr. HeartBreaker

I've been through a lot of things when it comes to Love. To sum it up, i think i've dated around 27 girls kot. Dafuq? ramainya..haha. It's true though, during school, i have a lot of girlfriends. The longest relationship i've been in was the last girl when i was in form 5. Kitaorg couple 1 year kot. Yang lain sebulan pun jadi. Ahaks.
Yeah, i was a bad guy. I played a lot in school, didn't put much effort in studies which made me kinda stupid.
I was taking pure science,u know, chemistry, biology, and whatnot. SPM results 2A's. I aced English and Maths! lol. During the holidays afterschool, something came to sense. I realised that i've been playing a lot and i tend to work things out. That is why i have no girlfriends now. I plan to focus on my studies; which is goin pretty swell. Recently i got 3.4, damnit, almost made it to DL. But yeah, to think of it, i don't regret my decision and leaving the past 'me' is a good choice. Living in college is tough, i need to endure all the temptation that is goin on around me. I'm very vulnerable when it comes to girls, but i try to keep myself from falling back to the dark side. Hahaha, mcm la baik sgt aku nih. Padahal peragai mcm setan. Well, im a teenager, so i guess its normal. xD

U guys must have thought I was a player. Nope, i wasn't. I don't date women to have sex (still a virgin, hahahah). That is just sick. I have my boundaries and even though I am not so religious, i do believe in God. Allah S.W.T. Like we all learned since we were little, god always knows what have we done in our life, whether it is good or bad.

If money grows on trees

Being me is hard. To tell u the truth, i've experience a lot of disturbance in my past days. To summarize it, my  parents are divorced, my siblings hate each other and me? I work for a living, to support my own financial status to carry on my studies. Not to say that im not grateful of who i am. I am very thankful to my parents who brought me into this world. Without them, who am i? No ONE. My mum still support me to this very day. But, i do feel bad to accept money from her after all that happens and she is a single mother now. I usually take the independent road . To look after myself, work hard to get some money to buy food and stuffs. But sometimes a.... susah jugak kalau tak cukup duit kt kolej. Rasa berat yg teramat nak minta duit from my mum. But she will always give, she said to me that bringing me into this world is her responsibility and as a parent, she will keep on supporting her son till the end. I broke down in tears when she said that. I know i sound like a sissy. A guy cried. Tah pape... but yeah, i did cried. My father stopped sending me money when he remarried with another woman (a bitch). Fucking Bitch. I'll tell you later about this bitch. Don't wanna get off topic. hahaha. I lost connection with my brother, no news from him, and i think its been like a year kot since we've met and talk. My sisters on the other hand, are still maintaining a good relationship. Kadang2, my sisters bagi jugak la some pocket money to me. ( which is very hard to refuse because they will insist me to take it, and sometime forces me. lol ) I susah sgt nak mintak duit kat orang. When i have a debt, i will pay a.s.a.p. Tak suka hutang2 ni. buat pening pala ja...
But now, my financial status sedang ok. Maybe because its the first 2 weeks being in campus. God knows what will happen next month. I hope i don't jolly too much and have to sell my underwear to get some money :3

Hopefully ten years from now, with a sophisticated technology, people can actually GROW money on trees. lol. What a dream.....

Pilot

To be honest, im not a blogger-type person. I used to hate blogs. Didn't know why. Perhaps i don't like to waste time reading people's crap story and all. I have my own problems that is hardly unsolved. I mean, for real right? Why do i need to coop all the stupid things that brings no concern to me at all? Being human is tough. Oh anyways, lets cut to the chase. This day 23/6/2012, is the day i start using blog. It just came to me straight away. I don't know what came to my mind to create this thingy. Oh well, my name is Ameer Aidan B. Nasaruddin, 20years old, now studying in UiTM Shah Alam. Course = Performing Arts, or theatre or seni lakon.

Oh look! its me :3

I mean, what's the deal with people being mysterious huh? U can judge all u want, but i don't see myself as a handsome guy or whatnot. Im just being simple, im being me. I think that's enough for introduction.